Loving and Losing

I looked back on the last post before my two recent, and I was thinking of the time when it was written and who it was written for. I was in love with the most wonderful woman in the world at the time. Even though she is an Australian and I an American, we maintained our relationship for more than two years up until the spring of 2006 when I was in Iraq. Then I committed the most horrible mistake of my life, and ended that relationship.

I think of what it cost me now, and think I am the world's biggest fool. She is still my best friend in the world, and I would do anything for her. She has been going through health troubles though, and I am there as much as I can be for her. I just can't help thinking though that if I hadn't been a better person then that we would be together now, and I would be physically with her to help her through these times.

I know I have told her many times how special she is to me, but hopefully she will read these words here and they will have a little more impact. The times we have shared together are the happiest memories of my life, and there is nothing that I would ever trade for them. I remember when she used to get mad at me for the gifts I bought her, but then I remember the same smiles and joy those gifts brought to us.

No matter what you think my dear. You are not alone in this, I love you and I will be here for you.

M