Some dreams come and go. This
Was the dream that lasted us thru
The years. It was our dream and
Now the dream is gone. I feel like
I have lost a part of myself now.

I don't know what to do without
That inside me. I feel hollow and
Empty, and I know I can keep on
Going on. I just don't know if it is
Worth going on or if I want to.

I've lost so much thru  the years,
But to lose this too? At some point
It just becomes too much, and I
Can only take so much. This is
Getting really close to that point.

I sit here wondering what I have
Left to hold on to? Being a soldier?
Gone. My kids? Grown up. My
Health? Wrecked. My marriage
And the dream? Destroyed by me.

One thing left to hold on to. Will I
Hold on a day, month, year or
Decade before I let go? I know I
Eventually will. When I do at least
Then I know the hurting stops .