Sometimes it is easier for me to write my thoughts down than to talk about them, and I sometimes wonder if I haven't just gone insane. I have never been a conventional person in any sense of the word, and that has included my relationships. My family has always thought there was something wrong with me because I was always interested in kinky things.
My wife, bless her heart, has always put up with and has joined in my interests. Although, even she doesn't realize I don't think just how far out and strange my mind works when it comes to love, the lifestyle and all the deep dark things inside my head and my heart.
I have often wondered if maybe I am wired wrong somewhere, because I love my wife but I am not made for monogamy. It doesn't mean I love her any less, but at the same time I need and want to have relationships with others. I know most people think polyamorous relationships are taboo, but I really don't.
I am not sure what it is about me, but I am not sure that I have ever reached the limits of what I might try or do in my lifestyle experimentation within reason. The farther I push my imagination, the more I come up with and the more I want to try and to do. I am not sure if that makes me crazy or normal, or if I have just lost my goddamned mind finally.
I guess the best answer is to have fun and play the hand you're dealt. And try not to get caught bluffing with a pair of deuces when the other guy has a full boat...lol
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