I don't know what's happening to me. I used to think I was normal, but everyday I am like Jekyll and Hyde. Most everyone sees me as a nice guy, but my wife knows the monster that lurks inside. She knows the fear that he invokes, and the terror that he instills. He isn't one to hurt physically, all his wounds are hidden on the psyche. He belittles, berates and abuses; and God help her if she tries to reason or to argues with him.

She calls him "Soldier Guy", and he is a perfect one. His only goal is to destroy anything that is in his path, and if he finds a weakness then you can be sure that he will use it against you. I never remember him being a part of me until about 4 years ago, but maybe he was part of the professional soldier in me. After I retired maybe he got locked away until he decided that he wanted back out to cause more mischief, mayhem and destruction.