Mistakes

I realise since giving you my news last night that I screwed up once again. I have thought about it a lot lately, and the offer that was made. I should have made you part of the decision process for this as well.

I can't say no to the opportunity this offers though. Not just the travel, because I already know I will be missing home. The chance for the education benefits is too good to pass up. It would be for a period of 2 years I would be there, and then come home to Owego.

I started the process today to transfer all my course work over to a regular college transcript. I may very well have a lot more credits than I thought for a degree in Criminal Justice with all my law enforcement courses, first aid and intelligence.

I love you, and I am sorry for not telling you about this sooner. You are the most wonderful woman in the world, but I hope you can see this as I do as a great opportunity for all of us. I want so much to get my degree, because it is one of my biggest regrets. I, also, want to show myself and you that I am past the under-achiever that I lived up to for so long.

I love you, and please forgive me.